it's a total waste of time from what i see now.. it does me no good other than making me hate myself even more.. i don't want this to drag on anymore.. i just want to get it over and done with.. so we don't get into each other's way any further.. don't want to get myself involved in this shit any further.. i feel like crap..

mr Tan gave ms Chua a task that's almost impossible to be done by her! but planning is fun! reminds me of the days as a guider, planning for camps! to plan the things to do at the different times, the days when we were forced to play H2O with NCC.. stupid games that we dreaded so much but had to do so because our in-charge was in love with their in-charge! explains why we the guides and NCC were on so good terms that we even had our camps together! HOWEVER, our teacher in charge was on bad terms with theirs and they hated the joint camps so much, they had conflicts all the time!

the irony was, by the time we took over, history repeated itself because we are on rather good terms with the NCC. so we still played stupid games everyone dreaded.. difference was we, as in charge, didn't have to play! and the NCC in charge had to polish the our boots for us! muahaha...

those days, we hated yet missed them..

as the days pass, it only gets worse.. everything seems so clear.. i see who you are.. it seems like you're nothing but selfish. all you can ever do is think of yourself.. when you needed help, you expected the whole world to help. once everything is over, you go missing. not a word of gratitude. to you, everything is rightful. you take things for granted. you think the whole world owes you a living..

but now, you are getting on my nerves. your actions are so immature.. you can't even behave your age and expect people to treat you like one. if things turn ugly, don't blame me.. you asked for it..

it's pointless being nice to people who do not know how to appreciate it.

fark! why is this happening again and again?! why am i always the one that is being sacrificed! you treat me like crap and you expect me to be the one doing you favours! if all you want is to force me to leave home, i will! all you have to do is come and i will go! i don't want to have to go through all this shit! i want a place i call mine. i don't want to share everything i have! call me selfish, call me unfilial. i just want it to be mine and mine alone! all my life, i never expected to be loved or anything by you! but now that i am who i am, you expect me to be filial to you! you expect me to do to your bidding! what do you think you are?! a senior is supposed to be respected. i understand that fact. totally. but if you think because i have to respect you, so i have to give up what i have to you, it's not going to happen!

first, you don't want to stay with them. now that they have moved out, you want to move out too! fark! if that's the case, why do you insist so much?!

DAMN IT! AND I WAS SO RIGHT THAT THIS SAME ISSUE IS GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN! WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!

you can't expect me to think for you if all you think about is your fucking self! get out of my life if need be! i would be happier that way!

FUCK!

yay! 1 new compliment to the driving skills! muahaha... i just don't understand why do fellow female drivers look down on their kind.. wells, what's wrong with a female driving like a male? isn't that good in the sense that you are not inferior compared to the males out there? damnit..

however, there's still room for improvement when it comes to road recognition.. totally.. at least i know how to get to woodlands now.. to and fro! but it's just so far! i don't wish to go there anymore! i still aspire to be driven than to drive! so, van, pls do something about it! don't be lazy anymore! haha..

life's never a breeze..

yay! me love me uncle to the maxxxxx! one more item on the wishlist down! hopefully the first one is going to work since it can't be found in sg!

so if all goes well, i will get my shades and wallet.. plus puma pumps..

shall see what ben wants to get for the lens and i will get something else.. so that's not going to happen so soon..

haversack.. haven't seen one that i fancy..

watch.. may get it soon. saw this design that looks quite nice.. but ben says design not practical because the face is protruding.. so it's going to be scratched first.. but i like! and y poor titus is a goner.. boo hoo..

sweater.. still in search.. thanks to ben again..

all in all.. shopping with ben is good! because everything i say, he will find something to oppose.. so i end up not buying on impulse!

prada tote.. not so soon.. end of the yr perhaps.. or next yr.. hmm..

yippee! so gonna get my puma shoes later.. and awaiting my sunglasses! totally love ben sososo much!

anyways, hongju, the wishlist is for me only! and not all very ex lo! like a watch is not ex? neither is a sweater? haha..

wishlist:
1. LV wallet
2. Prada bag
3. that Prada Sunglasses (ben saw! =p)
4. Sweater
5. Puma pumps
6. DKNY Watch
7. Haversack
8. Lens for my 450D
more to come!

why does it seem like relationships nowadays are so frail? people used to marry someone else that they probably have not seen before, let alone understand the other party. compared to then, people today choose their own spouse, get married out of free-will.. maybe not all the time but at least majority of the time, that's the wat it is.

So question is, why is the divorce rate getting higher? isn't the point "kids are always the ones who suffer the most" always highlighted, be it in shows or in reality? are parents being selfish then? or are they just self-centered that they live in their own worlds?

so amazing how u choose your own spouse, asked "Will you be my gf", said "I love you", asked "Will you marry me?" and eventually say "I want a divorce." like some QnA session.. crap..

counting down to the end of attachment! excluding the weekends and today, it's 7 days!! no more early mornings and long distance travelling. however, school's no where better.. going to school for 1 hr and 2 hr on mondays and fridays, and the rest are long days.. that's besides the point though. what turns me off even more is the fact that 1 end at 6pm everyday be it a long day or not!.. only consolation is that thurs is a normal day.. bloody hell! cant's they have better planning to begin with?! arghhh.. damn it.. admin ppl..

Jessleen

21 years old
05 August 1988
NUS-Mechanical Engineering

jessleen@hotmail.com



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